2 Months!

Our little darling is 2 months old today! Can't believe we have survived this far! *Congratulatory pat to both mummy and daddy*

And look how cute it is when daddy spends time with the little monster princess.

 Reading the Straits Times

Not sure what they are watching

Sleeping in awkward positions

Hugz

Daddy = Rafiki

Chloe = Simba

My Doraemon Baby

Here is our little angel when she is behaving. Look at her round white hand :)

P/S - Dear Chloe - You kept mama up for 3 hours last night and mama had no clue why you were so upset. Pls behave tonight if you don't want to be thrown out of the window, okay :)

Multi-Colored French Tips

A tad belated but better late than never :)

Oh Dear

No one told me motherhood is so tough!!! Or maybe someone did but I wasn't listening. I always thought it would be okay in a manageable sense, but it is not. It's WAY tougher than any other job/task/project I have ever done... EVER. 

It just takes a toll on you physically - what with all the feeding, milk pumping, changing nappies, burping, putting her to sleep etc. And mentally too - is her jaundice level okay? Is she breathing.. OMG is she moving? Argh.. who wouldn't go nuts.

And when she cries like this all afternoon, you wanna cry too and pull your own hair out.

But when she falls asleep and starts looking adorable again, you fall in love all over again. 

Until the next feeding time :)

Welcome Baby Chloe

Thank God for safe delivery. Here is baby Chloe all wrapped up. 

And here is the hubby after learning how to shower Chloe. 

Thank you all for your prayers! We are now resting at home busy with changing nappies and feeding our little bundle of joy. 

My IUGR Baby

The past 2 weeks have been one roller coaster emotional ride for me and Calvin. So I had a routine medical check up on Monday and expected it to be a normal hi-bye-thank-you-doc kinda visit, until the doc realised that baby Chloe was at the bottom 5th percentile in terms of growth. In another word, she was very small for her gestational age and had not been growing much since our last visit 2 weeks ago. Alarmed, the doc sent me for another sonograph which confirmed that Chloe was indeed small. She was only weighing 1.6kg when she should be above 2kg. 

What followed next was a CTG monitoring, which checks the baby's heart beat to make sure she was doing alright in the womb. All was fine with Chloe's heart beat; thank God it was good and regular. However the CTG monitor also picked up that I was having regular contractions! And what was more bizarre was that I did not realise that those hardenings that I have been feeling in my stomach were not Chloe bundled up in a corner after all. I barely had any pain, and I thought contractions are supposed to be painful. 

Anyway, by then I was already so overwhelmed by the sudden turn of event and it had been such a long day of waiting for the doc/sonograph result/doc and then the CTG test (and I was supposed to log on from home to finish up some work) that I just broke down and cried in the hospital. Yeah I was bawling. 

Calvin couldn't be there with me during the check up as he got called in for a simulator last minute. The doc asked if I wanted to call him but I refused because I knew I'd cry more if I hear his voice, and I didn't wanna alarm the doc and all the pregger ladies outside the clinic *read I was a total emotional mess*. I eventually did later when the doc said she had to hospitalised me to try to stop the contraction. 

As I was only 35 weeks along then, it was best they administer steroid to strengthen Chloe's lungs in case she comes out early. As the steroid takes 48 hours to work, I was put on medication and drips to minimise contraction and to try to wait out delivery until at least 48 hours later. It was the most uncomfortable 2 days of my life but thank God Calvin was there with me throughout the whole ordeal. 

Fast forward to today... I have been discharged from the hospital and been asked to monitor baby movement daily. I am also required to go back for CTG monitoring twice a week until delivery day. Baby Chloe has been doing great so far, although my odd contractions still does not subside. 

I will be 37 weeks along this coming Monday, and that's when we will induce baby Chloe. 

A big thank you to friends and family members who have been there for us, helping us to get ready for the arrival of Baby Chloe, and also for the emotional support. We love you very much and couldn't have done this without you. 

Please pray for safe delivery of Baby Chloe.

My Dearest Husband

My husband has a lot of free time when he is not flying. It is the perk of the job, he says. Since my application to be a full time housewife is pending approval, I can only watch with envy as he wakes up late and have all the time in the world to hang out with his friends of the same profession. But no matter how many friends he meets or how many activities he has on for the day, he never fails to show up on time to fetch me home from work. And sometimes this chauffeur comes bearing gifts of geberras and sunflowers. 

My husband snores, so loud he would wake himself up sometimes. But recently I noticed the snoring has diminished because he's deliberately slept on his side so that his pregnant wife would have a good night sleep. And he'd never failed to hold my hand underneath the sheets right before I fall asleep. That to me is the most romantic thing ever. 

My husband does not plan. He is the pack-your-bag-and-go kinda vacation planner and is all for spontaneity. While it stresses the mild OCD in me sometimes, it actually brings out a sense of adventure previously alien to me. Thanks to dear husband,I got the chance to shoot an AK47 in Vegas, pat a leopard in South Africa and sky dive in Santa Cruz (well technically that was my idea but he was all for it and did not chicken out).

My husband thinks he's put on weight. I think the little pouch is too cute. 

As I am on this hospital bed waiting for the nurses to check on Chloe, the husband sits quietly waiting beside me with his Nexus 5. And I am reminded of how blessed to have such a wonderful husband who is there for me through thick and thin. This post shall post as a reminder to myself not to that for granted. Love you my dear.